DespicableMe.

Just a little over our second month, and this.

Once again, my inner rages have hurt the ones closest to me.

Once again, I am reminded of my disgusting self.

Once again, I let history repeat itself.

I hate myself. This self.

Another goodbye.

I hate goodbyes. Unfortunately, i had to deal with another one today. This is my fifth ever since I have been at PEH, and easily, the hardest.

As Yvonne's last day started sinking in the evening, I feel this sadness in a lil corner of my heart. She has done so much for us; for the Business Office. She was always there when we needed her, to stand up for us and fight for what's right. She has taught me life values; and in turn how to become a better person. She has guided my boy and taught him many life skills as well. Thus, we are all better people because of her. 

Though only for a short time, she has brought long-gone peace back to the Business Office, which was deeply appreciated by all of us, especially the staff in the Business Office. She never hesitated to stand up for justice, even though it does not concern her directly. And for all that you have done, Yvonne, thank you so, so much. I doubt you will ever know how important your entrance into our lives is, but, thank you for answering my prayers, babe. Its time for us to stand up for ourselves now :)

The past two months, although short, had been fun. Life in PEH would never been this enjoyable without you and the group :) This friendship we share; i'll take it with me for life. Thank you for choosing me to be your friend.

God bless, and take care of yourself, babe. Please be happy always, because you do not deserve anything less.

Words can never express my gratitude for you, but, let me just say this once again,
thank you for everything ♥

Monthsary

Happy 1st, my love. Though its only the first month, it feels that we have known each other for a long time due to the huge amount of time we've spent together. But i aint complaining ~!

Following today, i have made a few resolutions that i would like to keep to.

1. I want my previous weight again. (and that includes not eating anything after 7pm, and not even "just one" oreo cheesecake or anything tempting)
2. Gonna start eating healthy, at least, til i get my ideal weight back.
3. Learn something new that is contructive.

and finally,

4. Shower you with more love everyday :)


This will be a long, long journey. I know its not going to be easy, especially at the start, but i am set to finish this with you.

P.S; I Love You.

Finally a chance.

I finally get the chance to help you. I will do my best. And i hope my best is good enough. I know its nothing compared to the shit you have been through. But due to circumstances, this is the only thing i can do for you, and i hope it works. Thank you to Yvonne babe for this opportunity. Actually, thank you for even stepping in our lives, you are the answer to my prayer. May God bless you, always.

And as i watch another one of you leave, i dont know what i should be feeling. One by one, i see all of you slip away....

Twelve cupcakes for priceless smiles

We had 3 maternity tours today. Scheduled tours are at 2.30pm. There were 2 couples for that. Then, for some reason which I cannot remember, there is another couple scheduled at 3pm, and a Mandarin speaking one at 3.30pm. Wow. 3 tours lined back to back. Josephine and I took turns to conduct them, and i was to conduct the Mandarin speaking one. And thats when the Chinese script that you did for me came in handy. Lol.

I was practically just reading off that piece of paper, while trying my best to keep eye contact with the patient. She said she didnt mind at all, as long as she could understand what i was saying. So that tour, was the slowest, and most challenging of all tours i have conducted. I was struggling to get the message across to her and her mother. And they had more than a ton of questions.

When we finally can move down to the lobby where i can explain about the maternity packages, they asked questions right down to the very detail. It kinda annoyed me because the cupcakes had arrived and i wanted to distribute them before everyone went home.

They even started to open up the contents of the maternity goodie bag and asked me what each item was for. Losing my patience, Josephine came to my rescue and i was able to distribute the 10 dozens of cupcakes.

Seeing the beaming faces of my colleagues, i feel the sense of happiness that i love.

Work2 was, although not busy, tiring. I have had a long day...

True Piscean At Work

They say Pisceans can get extreme mood swings with no reason at all at times. I guess this is one of those times. As the pouring evening transits into the drizzling night, rain always calms me, and these are times when i really enjoy the solitude.

I kinda let myself melt into these feelings flowing through me, as the alone time brings inner peace, where i can retreat into my fantasy world, away from the busy everyday life.

And it is also during these times when  i reminisce the good, fond memories, the what had been...

First day of long leave :)

Life is fragile. Life is short. Thus, we should live and love with no regrets, and make the best of every day. This realization came to me two nights ago, when i witnessed life being taken away, just like that. The bat was trying to fly with its injured wing, but to no avail. Even when he helped it to the side of the road, it still couldnt escape its fate. It did not deserve that. The pain in my heart was so much that it made my tears flow.

And he just knew exactly what to do to make me feel better. Thank you so much for knowing me so well :')

Yesterday was spent playing Audition, and a short dinner at Sakae, followed by a trip to our plane-watching hideout. I do love just sitting in the car, listening to the soft music, with him by my side as the planes flew overhead preparing for touch down. 

Today. I was supposed to be cleaning up my room. I did, but i started rather late because i thought i could finish it quickly. Apparently i was wrong. Oh well, i'll continue that tomorrow, and postpone my visit to the salon to Sunday. Have another two more days of leave, and i am looking forward to spending this time with him ♥